Blindsides

I received two notifications from my auto-insurance yesterday (Thursday, March 14th, 2013)
—1) was a bill for my motorcycle insurance due April 3rd.
—2) was policy-declarations for changes to my auto-insurance policy since I traded-down to only one car.
Another Blindside!
The declarations said I was unmarried.
That’s technically correct, but I can’t crunch that yet.
My wife died almost a year ago, yet I still feel married.
Another widowed friend was telling me how she was filling in her 1040 income-tax form, and didn’t know how to fill in her marriage-status.
She called IRS.
“Single,” they told her, as if to comment “don’t be stupid!”
She was married 20 years, me 44.
You don’t just all-of-a-sudden become unmarried.
Well yes you do, technically. But you don’t just immediately feel you’re single.
In the process of trading down to one car, I had to access our safe-deposit box to get the titles for my old cars.
“Please sign the signature-card,” the bank-clerk said.
BLINDSIDE ALERT!
There on the card was my wife’s signature. She was last to access our box.
I managed to sign the card without crying, but I was holding back tears.
Almost a year has passed since my wife’s death, but I can’t just reverse 44 years of marriage to a really good one.